i went home to kidapawan for a vacation… wow its good to have a new neighbor…
and so it started with a simple text message… we became textmate then… even if he is just living in front of our house… if i’m zero balance.. i’ll just shout ‘wala na akong load’…
one good thing i love in him… is he wipes my face even if there’s no dirt in it… he smells fresh with his baby cologne and powder… he washes our dishes after having lunch or merienda together… he jsut love to hug and kiss me… (ofcourse)… and he loves to be in church…
we didn’t last that long… 4months.. we tried again… but then distance was then a matter…
years had passed… after graduating in highschool he entered the seminary… me? i had my life also… we lived our life separately… away… they sold their house and moved to another place… but everytime i went home.. i still look outside and hoping that someone is looking out our home looking for me, too… i heard (from his friend in the seminary) that everytime they talk about their lovelife… he talks about us… and everytime december approaches.. he becomes so excited ..(you know why???)…
one day… i received a text..’vyoung our bishop did not allow me to continue my study here in the seminary..’ he was down then that i really wanna go home and hug him tightly… and i could remember when i told myself ‘if i got the chance… i would choose to be with him’…
time passed… another text i received… ‘i’m in zamboanga.. my girlfriend is pregnant… wwwwwwhaaaaaaattttt??????……..that was crazy… and i just forget the promise that i made for myself…and forget about him… forget about us…
months later… ‘hey i’m here in manila…where are you? where do you live?’… o my god!!! he’s in a parish to try his luck… not married… very single… he was just joking then…
i never thought that we would be seeing each other here… we ate halo-halo in chowking… we go to church together (secretly…bawal eh… takas lang.. eheheeh)…he had pizza… we had talks… he change a lot… better as ever.. more mature… more independent… but still the sweet one… the caring one…but one day he decided to go home… he was not meant to be here…
a day before he went home… we had the whole night to spend together… those kisses… is still the sweetest… and those hugs… was the most tight but the most gentle… how i miss those times and will be missing this night… no words are needed… that was the most amazing night that we had…i silence we listen to our hearts… i know how true those are…until now i could still feel the warmth of those hugs… as if he is hugging me the whole time…
time to go….our last song …’hawak kamay’… di kita iiwan sa paglakbay… dito sa mundong walang katiyakan… please tears i beg… dont fall… and so bye bye now…
and thats the last time we see each other for now… and again… we live in separate lives…
i dont know what future awaits us… but for now… i face my life alone… hoping that when the meteor shower comes… we’ll be wishing on the same star…
i miss you…
i still love you…and will always be
